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Sister Wendy,another thought provoking and challenging piece. I want to comment on any number of points in it. First how I wish I had a cruel sharp tongue and was as master mistress?) of cutting put downs. I'm now 70 and I'm losing the control I used to have against reacting when I hear a person,it could be male or female,young or old say something derogatory about me in my hearing and unmistakeably aimed at me. I shout and rave and then challenge them to call the police and get me arrested. Which ain't gonna happen as there.could be a murder in progress and the cops won't show up till next week. And,lol,the young woman on the switchboard before you even get put through to the police and then you have at least half hours wait,will tell you not to worry,make yourself a nice cup of tea. So two days ago I had a super walk through my city of Bristol UK. The fact is this city is threaded through with green lanes,footpaths,tracks,you can walk across the whole city and feel like youre in the countryside. But no mud! Well in winter a bit maybe. But defo no cows! So I'd had a great 'alternative' walk,felt happy and 'succesful' As I walked up a narrow street of terraced houses to my bus stop suddenly a male voice started singing but the words were saying that I was sexually in attractive,dishonest and unacceptable. And I just lost it. I started raving but I know I just looked like a mad old woman mouthing inanities,while the guy calming continued dismantling scaffold. His mate brought a load of scaffold poles to load on the lorry and as he passed me he winked,not I hasten to add,in a dodgy or disrespectful way. It was his way of saying I get why you're angry and I agree with you. But of course he wasnt there to be a knight,he was there to do a job to earn money . I expect they both had homes with mortgages ,wide and kids. Do I have to be sexy at 70 just to be a 'member of society' of 'the community'. I know it reveals a lot to my detriment that people have that reaction to me. I just wish I could have shouted something so wittlity and devastatingly cruel he would have fallen off his high place. But by God's Mercy I can't. Channeling the Love of God through yourself to the other people only works if you are attractive. So it works for you. If you look like a villain you are one,or like me,after a lifetime of trying you give up and decide you might as well be one. That is why I'm not longer tending the beautiful garden I've been nurturing for 20 years here. It's drying up and dying. But the people who now live here like it better that way anyway. I thought creating and maintaining a lovely garden (at my own expense but I never spent too much) would be accepted as a "contribution to society" and it was by a few people but this place has become more transient,a moving population,people not rooted in the locality for whom nowhere and everywhere are the same thing. People who can live anywhere and thus belong nowhere. Roses and Flowers and Beauty is very low on their survival scale,and I understand that so as my efforts see me looked askance at im letting it die but they like it better that way.

Far too long as usual . I want to make one other comment,about that passage in Ephesians. Will do that later.

Charles Summers's avatar

The battle is indeed the Lord’s. Knowing this can help keep our egos in check. For me, the devil’s primary grip on my thought process is through my ego, every unhealthy feeling or desire originates in the ego. Keeping it deflated is a full time job. Peter tells us to resist the devil and he will flee. Resist is an action word.

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