Better clarify,my Mum died 8 years ago aged 91 so unlike yourself I had her with me for most of my life but this meant I never got to go out into the world and create an independent life but on the upside when my Mum lost her strength in her 80s I was on the spot to take on caring duties and my Mums last years were lived how she liked and wanted,not semi comatose in a chair in a care home. So I guess there is two sides to every situation.
I feel more cheerful now. Nothing like a good moan! My "friend" here has invited another of her friends to spend Xmas Day with her,because,as she says,he is on his own. I didnt say well I'm on my own but Im better off not being invited as the afternoon tv viewing might be accompanied by the odd funny smoke! I'm crazy enough already.
Thank you for this. This is a very unhappy Xmas for me and no one but me is to blame. I am more isolated and alone than I have ever been and even if I went to where there were other people I would be invisible and untouched. Beccause I am ..as your second paragraph lists,violent,idiotic .....and all the rest. I will turn 70 in two months time. My Mum left us (died- I can never say that,not from emotional reasons but because though my Mum in her physical body form is past and gone I know the life force is not,my Mum had such a strong life force within her,I know that is not dead,I'm happy to think my Mum is in the stars and the trees as is my Dad who passed away first) Why did God create people like me who are totally unacceptable to the society around them. But at least I havent been burnt at the stake yet. I know if I cared about and helped other people I would have friends except I know that's a nice illusion. People take but when I need the knocked door does not open,the call is blocked,the line is busy. Why is God letting this happen to me.
Hi dear Jane Baker…I want to craft an answer carefully and gently, as I relate to so much that you say. When I mentioned all the traits of people that perhaps God would not love, like the “mess makers, the violent, the idiotic..” etc., I MYSELF AM INCLUDED in that list! Matthew 11:28 tells us from Christ Himself to “Come unto Me all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest.” This verse alone INVITES us to come directly to God and His Son Jesus Christ, for help in time of need (which for myself and the world, is all day , everyday). I am NOT self-sufficient, nor should I be. Relying on self gets you into plenty of trouble (read some of my Substack pieces!!) I would say to you, Jane, that you are BELOVED of God! You were created by Him, given gifts that you alone have, in all the history of the world. There is only one Jane Baker. No matter how much of an outcast you feel you are, much of that is the devil’s lies whispering in your ears. He does the same to me. I don’t know you and I am no theologian but just a simple woman of God who wandered far afield from God in my grief, many years ago. As I say in my Barn piece, He sent Christ the Good Shepherd out after me for 35 years…and I finally returned, wounded and a mess. HE STILL WANTED ME BACK. That is the essence of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, Who loved us all, not for our surface appearance but because we were created to be God’s family. No matter how many of us wander, we are still loved and called to become children of God. Take things one day at a time, read a Bible if you have one, and simply, like a child, ask God to help you. Find a good church if you can, one that is kind and loving and seek fellowship with Christians. I will pray that you are guided! God bless your road, you are unique and you are needed. Wendy
Thank you , dear Delia, I put this shorter piece up unexpectedly tonight, as Holy Spirit told me to. It has been an emotional time, I am in tears even more than usual…but what Christ did for all of suffering humanity…it is truly overwhelming. God bless and keep you, Wendy
First, I'm sorry I called you by your second name. Second, how do I donate? Where?
Yes, I cannot comprehend it, but I accept it WHOLEHEARTEDLY bc I know I am THAT loved. I'm so glad you leaned into the Holy Spirits prompting. Thank you, dear Wendy. You are a gem. 🙏🏻💕
Delia, NO worries about my name! I seldom get to use my middle name, Elizabeth, and just decided to use all three names when I started my Substack back in July 2022. Holy Spirit is actually my writing coach, He actually knows things...and He makes me laugh as well, go figure! My heart needs a lightening all the time, as I am so blasted serious! As for donating, thank you! You can do one of two things: you can join as a paid subscriber for $5 a month or you can donate to my Ko-Fi page at ko-fi.com/wendyelizabethwilliams. Ko-Fi is similar to "buy me a coffee" , in that you can donate any amount, one time or as a regular donation, up to you. My "any amount" is $1 and up. I also have a handful of short pieces on my writing section/blog on Ko-Fi, memories of my love of makeup (from youth) and garments. Just starting this but have four short pieces. God bless you, Delia, you are very kind! I am gem...in training...as we all are!
Bless you, my friend! Yours is my first read of the day.
Thank you for this, Wendy. Well written. Timely. Nice.
Thank you, Chet, for your kind comment! I appreciate it. Wendy
Better clarify,my Mum died 8 years ago aged 91 so unlike yourself I had her with me for most of my life but this meant I never got to go out into the world and create an independent life but on the upside when my Mum lost her strength in her 80s I was on the spot to take on caring duties and my Mums last years were lived how she liked and wanted,not semi comatose in a chair in a care home. So I guess there is two sides to every situation.
I feel more cheerful now. Nothing like a good moan! My "friend" here has invited another of her friends to spend Xmas Day with her,because,as she says,he is on his own. I didnt say well I'm on my own but Im better off not being invited as the afternoon tv viewing might be accompanied by the odd funny smoke! I'm crazy enough already.
Thank you for this. This is a very unhappy Xmas for me and no one but me is to blame. I am more isolated and alone than I have ever been and even if I went to where there were other people I would be invisible and untouched. Beccause I am ..as your second paragraph lists,violent,idiotic .....and all the rest. I will turn 70 in two months time. My Mum left us (died- I can never say that,not from emotional reasons but because though my Mum in her physical body form is past and gone I know the life force is not,my Mum had such a strong life force within her,I know that is not dead,I'm happy to think my Mum is in the stars and the trees as is my Dad who passed away first) Why did God create people like me who are totally unacceptable to the society around them. But at least I havent been burnt at the stake yet. I know if I cared about and helped other people I would have friends except I know that's a nice illusion. People take but when I need the knocked door does not open,the call is blocked,the line is busy. Why is God letting this happen to me.
Hi dear Jane Baker…I want to craft an answer carefully and gently, as I relate to so much that you say. When I mentioned all the traits of people that perhaps God would not love, like the “mess makers, the violent, the idiotic..” etc., I MYSELF AM INCLUDED in that list! Matthew 11:28 tells us from Christ Himself to “Come unto Me all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest.” This verse alone INVITES us to come directly to God and His Son Jesus Christ, for help in time of need (which for myself and the world, is all day , everyday). I am NOT self-sufficient, nor should I be. Relying on self gets you into plenty of trouble (read some of my Substack pieces!!) I would say to you, Jane, that you are BELOVED of God! You were created by Him, given gifts that you alone have, in all the history of the world. There is only one Jane Baker. No matter how much of an outcast you feel you are, much of that is the devil’s lies whispering in your ears. He does the same to me. I don’t know you and I am no theologian but just a simple woman of God who wandered far afield from God in my grief, many years ago. As I say in my Barn piece, He sent Christ the Good Shepherd out after me for 35 years…and I finally returned, wounded and a mess. HE STILL WANTED ME BACK. That is the essence of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, Who loved us all, not for our surface appearance but because we were created to be God’s family. No matter how many of us wander, we are still loved and called to become children of God. Take things one day at a time, read a Bible if you have one, and simply, like a child, ask God to help you. Find a good church if you can, one that is kind and loving and seek fellowship with Christians. I will pray that you are guided! God bless your road, you are unique and you are needed. Wendy
Thank you, Elizabeth. You have a heart of gold, and you are an amazing writer. Merry Christmas!
Thank you , dear Delia, I put this shorter piece up unexpectedly tonight, as Holy Spirit told me to. It has been an emotional time, I am in tears even more than usual…but what Christ did for all of suffering humanity…it is truly overwhelming. God bless and keep you, Wendy
First, I'm sorry I called you by your second name. Second, how do I donate? Where?
Yes, I cannot comprehend it, but I accept it WHOLEHEARTEDLY bc I know I am THAT loved. I'm so glad you leaned into the Holy Spirits prompting. Thank you, dear Wendy. You are a gem. 🙏🏻💕
Delia, NO worries about my name! I seldom get to use my middle name, Elizabeth, and just decided to use all three names when I started my Substack back in July 2022. Holy Spirit is actually my writing coach, He actually knows things...and He makes me laugh as well, go figure! My heart needs a lightening all the time, as I am so blasted serious! As for donating, thank you! You can do one of two things: you can join as a paid subscriber for $5 a month or you can donate to my Ko-Fi page at ko-fi.com/wendyelizabethwilliams. Ko-Fi is similar to "buy me a coffee" , in that you can donate any amount, one time or as a regular donation, up to you. My "any amount" is $1 and up. I also have a handful of short pieces on my writing section/blog on Ko-Fi, memories of my love of makeup (from youth) and garments. Just starting this but have four short pieces. God bless you, Delia, you are very kind! I am gem...in training...as we all are!
Thank you, Wendy! Much love, ♥️
Blessings to you. You have a gift.
Thank you, Dr. Kimber, I appreciate your kind comment! God bless you, Wendy